Monday, March 10, 2014

12 weeks old



I’m 5.2kg.

I have a serious look.

I’m a cooing machine.

I like to be carried.

I’m often being mistaken as a boy.

I have started to sleep through the night.

Monday, March 3, 2014

Greater glory

One quarter of the year is almost gone for me to realise that I have not penned down pastor’s vision for 2014 – a year of GREATER GLORY. 


Isaiah 60:

Arise, shine;
For your light has come!
And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you.
2 For behold, the darkness shall cover the earth,
And deep darkness the people;
But the Lord will arise over you,
And His glory will be seen upon you.
3 The Gentiles shall come to your light,
And kings to the brightness of your rising.

By faith, I know that this shall be the best year (yet) of my life. As a mother of two. As a wife. As a daughter. As an employee. As a friend. As a Rock Kidz teacher.

I am not sure what darkness there might be in the world, although for now, Ukraine unrest could just be one of them, but I know for sure that God’s hand is upon my household and His protection and favour shall reign in the family.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Extended CNY in Penang

I wanted to try something different with this baby and this maternity leave. So we decided to fly back to Penang for CNY, bringing the entire troop. Bb L was a good traveller who slept through the short flights to and fro. 

The kids and I spent a whooping 15 days in Penang, with daddy M leaving for Sg first.

It took me about a week to get accustomed to my hometown – how ironic. With only a handful of friends left and the new roads, new shopping places, I felt a little out of place at first. But home is home. Our original plan was for me and the kids to stay 7 days but what the heck, since I’m on maternity leave, why not just extend? So we did! From 7, I changed our tickets to 10 and further extended to 15 days!

It was a blast for S because everyday = play, play and play.


With so much time on hand, I ventureed new places with S, doing the touristy thing – art walls, reservoir, fishermen village, butterfly farm (though she refused to go in!), pasar malam and of course playgroundS!  I also had more time with friends whom I have not seen for years…



It was a good break and a change out of the routine in Singapore. It was also my longest stay in Penang since 2001. There were fleeting thoughts on how my life would have been had I not left Penang for Singapore 14 years ago. One thing for sure, my walk with God would have been very different. How about daddy M? S? L? No regrets. As I said, only fleeting thoughts.

Saturday, January 25, 2014

First 6 weeks

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It has been 6 weeks since the arrival of baby L. Today marks a new beginning as the confinement aunty finishes her engagement. She has been a great help, 100% much better than our first.  Hence I’m somewhat anxious of her departure…

The past 6 weeks seemed like a life time ago (technically baby L's lifetime) with so much memories and celebrations (Christmas, New Year, first month)…The hormones rage this round did not turn me into a vampire like the last but a cry baby. Any little thing could send my mood spirally downward. I was pretty down for the first 3 weeks with wild mood swings that ended up in tears.
The strict confinement practices implemented by my mom (eg. no vegetables for whatever reason, no water etc), coping with rusty breastfeeding and engorgement plus the attention demanded by S were the key factors that drove me up the wall.

I need to pen this journey down as it is moving faster than I can remember…

At 6 weeks, baby L is 4kg. We are super contented that her weight is “normal” as we were so used to being told that our baby (S) was always at the lowest percentile.   She needs to be burped and elevated after each feed or she may end up being the Singapore merlion (major regurgitation).

Although apprehensive that we are now on our own (well, still with the help of our domestic help) I pray that that all will be well and we get to enjoy/cherish every single bit of this new chapter. 

Friday, December 20, 2013

The birth story no. 2

On 9/12/13, I started to dilate - 2.5cm with random contraction. As my gynae was going away on 13/13/12, we had no choice but to schedule to induce the baby on 11/12/13. 

10am - induced with a tablet. Just like the first time, we were whisked off to walk around and have our lunch. We ended up in Ippudo Ramen.  Somehow the ramen tasted better with contractions and anxiety. 

1pm - checked into the hospital. As the midwife was about to administer a bottle of Fleet into my rear-end, I got a call from daddy M from the registration counter telling me that there was no single ward (not even the suite) available because 11/12/13 was an auspicious date!! I was not prepared to share a room with a stranger and not having daddy M to spend the nights with me. No way Jose!  "I don't know, do something about it!" was what I could say before the effects of Fleet took over.  

2pm- Delivery room. Midwives: "What's your pain score upon 10?", SK:"1.5, but I would like to request for epidural. You know, just in case..."

2.30pm- there was a suite available and we immediately snatched it! Think of the $$ later... Apparently there were 42 babies born on 11/12/13 with 18 scheduled c-section! 

3pm- happy-dural'ed and numbness came.

From 3-6pm I just rested, whatsapp my progress to friends and watched a weird show on channel 5 about speed dating!

6pm - fully dilated! But baby's heart beat started to drop and I was given an oxygen mask to breath in/out. Everyone in the room looked stressed- the midwife, the gynae, daddy M but nobody said anything much but "Just breath..."

6.30pm- Pushing started but I couldn't really do it right because of the effects of epidural. I was shivering too (another side effect of epidural). Gynae tried foreceps but baby refused to come out! So she tried vacuum. The room's atmosphere got a liitle more tensed ( I was still on the oxygen machine)...  And at 7.02pm, she finally arrived!! 2.595kg and 47cm. No tears of joy though but sighs of relief that she came safely without the need for emergency c-section...

It took us 2 days to decide on calling her Lauren which means victory of wisdom. Other contenders were Maxine (the greatest) and Rebekah (the captivating one).  So now we have 3 wise men at home including daddy M :)

It was a painless delivery according to Isaiah 66:7 - Before she was in labour she gave birth; before her pain came, she gave birth....

Thank you Jesus!

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Major milestone

We were never really bothered that S was still wearing diaper to sleep at night. Someone once told me that when a child is ready, we'll know.
Two nights ago S insisted that she did not want to put on a diaper to sleep. I was not convinced (or prepared), so I proposed to her that if she kept her diaper dry the next morning, we could go diaper-free the next night.
1.40am: "Mommy, I want to pee,". Alright.
5.40am: "I didn't pee in my diaper!". Very determined. 
Last night I kept my diaper-free promise and voila! It's dry in the morning!
A big sister in the making... Not fully yet till she kicks her milk-bottle habit! 

I am glad anyways :) 

Monday, September 23, 2013

Family train

A couple of years back, I had a dream shot of our family- me hugging on to daddy M from behind and S behind me, like a train. Finally the day came that we took this shot, well, somewhat like how I have imagined... Thank you Chris!!